I weighed myself today and was 130lbs still. I weighed myself 2 days ago and I was 132, before I started eating 100% raw again. That is totally how it usually goes - I can easily gain or lose 2lbs every time I start eating cooked or stop eating cooked. So here's the stats so far:
Starting weight: 127
Week 8: 130
Week 9: 130
But it's very weird. By looking in the mirror I SWEAR I've gained 10lbs at least! All my shirts already are tight except a few that were loose on me before. My boobs aren't changing one bit but my "girth" or the width around my entire stomach & back (back bra strap seems to be tighter...grrr)seems to be widening - thicker. Which, is what it is supposed to do I SUPPOSE, but part of me is like gosh, it's just the uterus that is supposed to be growing. What is up with the whole back fat thing? Why on earth does my body feel that back fat is beneficial to hold on to during pregnancy? Hee hee....whatever though, I'm not going to stress about it, just think it's one of those kind of annoying things. As long as I still fit into my size XS Old Navy yoga pants I'll be happy! Although DH assures me that a bigger butt is not such a bad thing, lol. =)
Today I ate everything 100% raw except for some potatoes that were stir-fried in coconut oil w/italian seasoning which I made for my family tonight. It's really hard sometimes to cook and not be able to taste it, and I've been venturing in the coconut oil realm as a substitute for butter and vegetable oil. Coconut oil to me is kind of sweet so it seems weird to use it for something like potatoes, but it turned out good and I received no complaints other than the usual from kids who don't like potatoes anyway.
Tonight it was so cute, Jack joined us at the family table. We have now officially grown out of our nicely prim & proper looking table with six matching chairs. Normally Marie who is the 7th person, would be in her highchair and Jack just kind of plays around the foot of the table, having eaten his bananas or whatever earlier on his own schedule. He still loves loves loves his formula bottle and would exist entirely on that if I let him. He's kind of picky at the same time, though - doesn't like funny temperatures in food and also texture.
So tonight I took out the baby masher and instead of giving him corn kernels which he always promptly spits out making a funny face, I smashed them up & fed them to him with a spoon. Mmmm Mmm Mmm he just loved that, making those "mmmm" noises as I fed him. So he also got smashed potatoes, smashed peas, and smashed corn for dinner. I made ham with the potatoes but I can't bring myself to feed him meat just yet.
We pulled up an extra chair for Marie who is 2 1/2 and she loved it so much. She felt really big, and I felt good about giving her the metal fold-up chair because she can get that dirty and it's not a big deal. The other chairs are cloth covered so I've been wondering what I'll do about that. She needs a booster though, AND some kind of strap so she stops standing up, lol. She's cute.
We're also growing out of our car! It seats 8 people, and we're going to be 9 come this July. Kind of daunting the things that come up at once - we also have to pay for the birth, which gets spendy. But we have worked hard to be good stewards of our money and to be budget-wise so these things that come up, are only opportunities to be faithful with what God has given us, and we know He will provide.
So today I had:
6 corn tortilla wraps stuffed w/lots of lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, onions, lime juice, salt, & pepper.
2 bananas
chocolate banana shake w/5 bananas + 1/4 cup sesame seeds for 7g protein
1/2 cup cooked potatoes
big bowl of chocolate coconut pudding with 1 1/2 avocadoes, coconut flakes, agave, & cocoa powder
It's late...better go to bed. School tomorrow, after 10 days of vacation! =)
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Week 8: Day 7 ~ Yummy Mexican recipes!
Tomorrow starts week 9!! That's super nice...I've felt like being in week 8 has been pretty rough. Probably physicologically though...just knowing that my morning sickness usually kind of peaks at weeks 8 & 9. So I'm hoping that by week 10 I start having more better days than bad. But who knows...it might be like this until week 12.
Which I HOPE not because we're having some friends of ours come stay with us for 4-5 nights for Christmas this year! I'm really excited and so are the kids - it's really different for us, but it's one of those things where you just roll with the punches and see how it goes. They're a young family (J&J Hong for those of you who know them!) from our church and have five kids ages 8 & younger. Their kids are roughly the same ages/sex as ours and we've stayed with them during several conferences at our church center in the dorm. They'll be all sleeping in one of our bedrooms in our small 1200 square foot 3-bedroom house - we'll have lots of bodies running around but they're all pretty little so it should be okay. The main thing I'm worried about is being able to do this while still being sick, so if I'm still this sick 2 weeks until Christmas we'll probably have to postpone it until next year.
I can't believe it, but I've officially been 100% raw for a whole day & a half! I figured out that orange juice is not a good thing to have before bed. I had six oranges juiced before bed last night, felt fine, and then woke up tossing & turning at about 2am just feeling so sick! So I had three large grapefruits juiced in the middle of the night, and woke up super sick at 9am and threw up.....fortunately it was just dry heaves since there was nothing, and I mean NOTHING in my stomach. Which is probably the problem, I suppose. So tonight I'll eat something heavier...probably a banana or something before.
So let's see...today so far I have eaten:
6 oranges, juiced
1 serving avocado chocolate pudding
chocolate banana shake (5 bananas, tray of ice, 2 cups water, 1T. sesame seeds, 1/8 c. cocoa, 1/8 c. agave, almond flavoring, 1/4 tsp. each of Maca & Mesquite)
2 small tomatoes sliced w/salt & pepper
1/4 ice cold pineapple
I also had Ani Phyo's Coconut Breakfast Pancakes which tastes like candy and we ate right out of the bowl: (my 11 mo & 2 year old ate some too!)
1.5 cups flax seed, ground
1 T. liquid coconut oil
1/8 c. agave
1/8 c. maple syrup (not raw, but pure grade B Organic)
1/4 tsp. sea salt
1/8 c. water
In the dehydrator I have "South of the Border Corn Chips" going right now. Ingredients are:
4 cups frozen corn, thawed
1 tsp. garlic powder
4 tsp. mexican seasoning
(or liberal dashes of oregano, cumin, black pepper, 1/2 tsp salt, red pepper flakes, & chili powder)
Mix it all together in the food processor until it's like mush, and taste it. I just kept adding spices until I liked the way it tasted; I like spicy. So I spooned all the goop out onto a Teflex sheet on my dehydrator tray, and they should be ready in about 4 hours or so, after turning halfway through. Corn dehydrates pretty fast. I've made these before but spread this recipe out over two sheets, and they were paper thin and really crumbly. So this time it's a thicker spread and I hope to give them more of a thicker crunchy feel like regular chips. Sure smells good!
The other thing I have in the dehydrator and I am just drooling over & keep sneaking bites are (my garage smells so good, like a mexican restaurant!):
Soft Corn Tortillas
3 cups thawed frozen corn
1 1/2 cups chopped bell pepper
3/4 cup golden flaxseed, finely ground
1 T. lime juice
1 T. ground chili powder
1 1/2 tsp. sea salt
2 tsp. ground cumin
In a food processor, chop the corn & bell pepper. Add the remaining ingredients and process until almost smooth.
Divide the dough onto two Teflex-lined dehydrator trays and spread to the edges using an offset spatula. Dehydrate at 115 F for 3-4 hours. Flip the Teflex sheets over onto the tray and carefully peel away the Teflex. Place back in the dehydrator for about 2 hours.
When the tortilla is completely dry on both sides but still pliable, remove it from the dehydrator and place on a flat surface. Now cut the tortillas - I ended up making them into squares cuz I was lazy last time. The recipe says it makes 9 4" round circles but that is just too small to hold all the goodies I wanted to put in there!
Last time I made these, I made everything else that comes with the recipe - spicy beans, tomato sauce, avocado-corn guacamole, tomato-lime salsa, and sour cream. It was all rather time consuming and a lengthy process, but VERY yummy. So much so that I ate way too many and after that lost my appetite for them, as can happen when you stuff yourself too full - especially with raw foods.
The best was the tart sour cream.....which I would totally make IF I had the stuff for it (but the cashews have to soak for 12 hours which is annoying when you want something NOW!). Today I went through my entire folder stuffed full of papers I've printed out with raw recipes on them through the years and I have a serious lack of ingredients!! I have NO nuts and NO dates, and this really cripples me on the majority of the recipes, apparently. Especially sunflower seeds - I'm really looking forward to getting those; I ordered 4lbs last night.
So probably tomorrow morning I'll be feasting on these yummy soft tacos....the filling will be the basics...tomatoes, avocados, lettuce, onions, lime juice. Cilantro would be yummy too but I don't have any that's not quite, um, rotten. =) Or maybe tonight if I stay up late enough. Hmmmm.
This is what really helps me to stay raw, is looking for recipes & creating yummy things, looking forward to them...it keeps my mind off of SAD food. Today I made burritos for the kids' lunch which consisted of a flour tortilla, cheddar cheese, and taco meat w/black beans. The tortilla was chewy and warm....I was really tempted to make one for myself w/out the meat and add in all my favorite things Quesadilla style. But I didn't - partly cuz I didn't want to write it on here, lol. See - accountability, it's working!
I also ordered some Macadamia nuts last night...I have 3 Mangos (kind of expensive @ $1.25 ea!) ripening that I am going to use for my favorite Mango/Avocado/Strawberry/Macadamia Nut salad soon. Mmmm I can't wait to get my nuts order! I always get my nuts from bulkfoods.com - they have really good prices and also have a HUGE variety of spices and other things like wheat berries, buckwheat, etc that I need for making breads & Pizza crust.
Speaking of which, I also have buckwheat soaking to make some yummy pizza crust in a few days. They have to sprout before I can use them, but I think they usually sprout within 24 hours or so of starting the soaking process. The crust I'm going to use is:
3 1/2 cups sprouted buckwheat
2 medium fresh tomatoes
1/2 a medium sized onion
6-8 sundried tomato halves, soaked (gotta' remember to do that!)
10 leaves of fresh basil (or I'll just use dried)
liberal shaking of italian seasoning
1 clove garlic
1/3 cup of olive oil
After mixing together in the food processor, it takes about 4-6 hours to complete. I'll probably get more fancy and make up some nut cheese w/cashews & red bell pepper and then some tomato sauce of some sort, then heap on my favorite toppings - basil, mushrooms, pineapple, tomatoes, onions, olives, and bell peppers. Sprouted buckwheat should stay good in the fridge for a few days so I'll have to wait until my nuts arrive & I take a trip to the store for more bell peppers.
Which I HOPE not because we're having some friends of ours come stay with us for 4-5 nights for Christmas this year! I'm really excited and so are the kids - it's really different for us, but it's one of those things where you just roll with the punches and see how it goes. They're a young family (J&J Hong for those of you who know them!) from our church and have five kids ages 8 & younger. Their kids are roughly the same ages/sex as ours and we've stayed with them during several conferences at our church center in the dorm. They'll be all sleeping in one of our bedrooms in our small 1200 square foot 3-bedroom house - we'll have lots of bodies running around but they're all pretty little so it should be okay. The main thing I'm worried about is being able to do this while still being sick, so if I'm still this sick 2 weeks until Christmas we'll probably have to postpone it until next year.
I can't believe it, but I've officially been 100% raw for a whole day & a half! I figured out that orange juice is not a good thing to have before bed. I had six oranges juiced before bed last night, felt fine, and then woke up tossing & turning at about 2am just feeling so sick! So I had three large grapefruits juiced in the middle of the night, and woke up super sick at 9am and threw up.....fortunately it was just dry heaves since there was nothing, and I mean NOTHING in my stomach. Which is probably the problem, I suppose. So tonight I'll eat something heavier...probably a banana or something before.
So let's see...today so far I have eaten:
6 oranges, juiced
1 serving avocado chocolate pudding
chocolate banana shake (5 bananas, tray of ice, 2 cups water, 1T. sesame seeds, 1/8 c. cocoa, 1/8 c. agave, almond flavoring, 1/4 tsp. each of Maca & Mesquite)
2 small tomatoes sliced w/salt & pepper
1/4 ice cold pineapple
I also had Ani Phyo's Coconut Breakfast Pancakes which tastes like candy and we ate right out of the bowl: (my 11 mo & 2 year old ate some too!)
1.5 cups flax seed, ground
1 T. liquid coconut oil
1/8 c. agave
1/8 c. maple syrup (not raw, but pure grade B Organic)
1/4 tsp. sea salt
1/8 c. water
In the dehydrator I have "South of the Border Corn Chips" going right now. Ingredients are:
4 cups frozen corn, thawed
1 tsp. garlic powder
4 tsp. mexican seasoning
(or liberal dashes of oregano, cumin, black pepper, 1/2 tsp salt, red pepper flakes, & chili powder)
Mix it all together in the food processor until it's like mush, and taste it. I just kept adding spices until I liked the way it tasted; I like spicy. So I spooned all the goop out onto a Teflex sheet on my dehydrator tray, and they should be ready in about 4 hours or so, after turning halfway through. Corn dehydrates pretty fast. I've made these before but spread this recipe out over two sheets, and they were paper thin and really crumbly. So this time it's a thicker spread and I hope to give them more of a thicker crunchy feel like regular chips. Sure smells good!
The other thing I have in the dehydrator and I am just drooling over & keep sneaking bites are (my garage smells so good, like a mexican restaurant!):
Soft Corn Tortillas
3 cups thawed frozen corn
1 1/2 cups chopped bell pepper
3/4 cup golden flaxseed, finely ground
1 T. lime juice
1 T. ground chili powder
1 1/2 tsp. sea salt
2 tsp. ground cumin
In a food processor, chop the corn & bell pepper. Add the remaining ingredients and process until almost smooth.
Divide the dough onto two Teflex-lined dehydrator trays and spread to the edges using an offset spatula. Dehydrate at 115 F for 3-4 hours. Flip the Teflex sheets over onto the tray and carefully peel away the Teflex. Place back in the dehydrator for about 2 hours.
When the tortilla is completely dry on both sides but still pliable, remove it from the dehydrator and place on a flat surface. Now cut the tortillas - I ended up making them into squares cuz I was lazy last time. The recipe says it makes 9 4" round circles but that is just too small to hold all the goodies I wanted to put in there!
Last time I made these, I made everything else that comes with the recipe - spicy beans, tomato sauce, avocado-corn guacamole, tomato-lime salsa, and sour cream. It was all rather time consuming and a lengthy process, but VERY yummy. So much so that I ate way too many and after that lost my appetite for them, as can happen when you stuff yourself too full - especially with raw foods.
The best was the tart sour cream.....which I would totally make IF I had the stuff for it (but the cashews have to soak for 12 hours which is annoying when you want something NOW!). Today I went through my entire folder stuffed full of papers I've printed out with raw recipes on them through the years and I have a serious lack of ingredients!! I have NO nuts and NO dates, and this really cripples me on the majority of the recipes, apparently. Especially sunflower seeds - I'm really looking forward to getting those; I ordered 4lbs last night.
So probably tomorrow morning I'll be feasting on these yummy soft tacos....the filling will be the basics...tomatoes, avocados, lettuce, onions, lime juice. Cilantro would be yummy too but I don't have any that's not quite, um, rotten. =) Or maybe tonight if I stay up late enough. Hmmmm.
This is what really helps me to stay raw, is looking for recipes & creating yummy things, looking forward to them...it keeps my mind off of SAD food. Today I made burritos for the kids' lunch which consisted of a flour tortilla, cheddar cheese, and taco meat w/black beans. The tortilla was chewy and warm....I was really tempted to make one for myself w/out the meat and add in all my favorite things Quesadilla style. But I didn't - partly cuz I didn't want to write it on here, lol. See - accountability, it's working!
I also ordered some Macadamia nuts last night...I have 3 Mangos (kind of expensive @ $1.25 ea!) ripening that I am going to use for my favorite Mango/Avocado/Strawberry/Macadamia Nut salad soon. Mmmm I can't wait to get my nuts order! I always get my nuts from bulkfoods.com - they have really good prices and also have a HUGE variety of spices and other things like wheat berries, buckwheat, etc that I need for making breads & Pizza crust.
Speaking of which, I also have buckwheat soaking to make some yummy pizza crust in a few days. They have to sprout before I can use them, but I think they usually sprout within 24 hours or so of starting the soaking process. The crust I'm going to use is:
3 1/2 cups sprouted buckwheat
2 medium fresh tomatoes
1/2 a medium sized onion
6-8 sundried tomato halves, soaked (gotta' remember to do that!)
10 leaves of fresh basil (or I'll just use dried)
liberal shaking of italian seasoning
1 clove garlic
1/3 cup of olive oil
After mixing together in the food processor, it takes about 4-6 hours to complete. I'll probably get more fancy and make up some nut cheese w/cashews & red bell pepper and then some tomato sauce of some sort, then heap on my favorite toppings - basil, mushrooms, pineapple, tomatoes, onions, olives, and bell peppers. Sprouted buckwheat should stay good in the fridge for a few days so I'll have to wait until my nuts arrive & I take a trip to the store for more bell peppers.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Week 8: Day 6 ~ Accountability
I really like what Mama said, about at least shooting for 50% raw during the day, so that way I can get in a little of the SAD food I want, yet still getting in more raw than just the 10% or so I have been doing.
Today I have actually been 100% raw except for about...3/4 cup worth of brownies I had this morning. THAT was emotional eating cuz I felt awful and just wanted something yummy to put in my mouth.
The reason I am titling this post "Accountability" is because I plan to write down what I'm eating each day and see if that helps. I don't want to emotional eat, and I really don't want to feel this sick, AND I don't want to gain alot of weight. I can tell now by the way my clothes fit that I'm gaining faster from eating the way I've been. I'll bet I'm already at the 6lb weight gain mark, but I haven't even checked..I don't need that kind of negativity in my mind, lol. Better to just focus on one day, one meal at a time.
So today so far (it's 6pm) I ate:
**6 oranges, juiced
**3/4 cup of brownies (not raw)
**1/2 pineapple
**2 roma tomatoes sliced w/pepper & salt
**2 big leaves of red leaf lettuce in a wrap with: 2 medium tomatoes, 1 small avocado, 1/2 cucumber, tobasco sauce, sprinkling of dry mustard, salt, & pepper. That was really savory & yummy alternative to just plain old salad.
**Revisited an old "love" I haven't had in ages! Chocolate coconut pudding. Mmmmm it was delicious, filling, and yum-o. Totally hit the spot.
I'm getting revved up to eat just plain old raw again, making as many variations of different raw recipes that I can and/or feel like. I don't plan on eating low fat right right now - but will still stay away from nuts for the most part. They just really don't agree with my stomach unless they're eaten alone as a mono meal. Mostly, sunflower seeds are what I can handle so I plan to get some of those. And also dates! I remember those! I have Ani Phyo's book and she uses mostly dates as her form of sweetener, which I like. My chocolate pudding calls for quite a bit of agave syrup as a sweetener, and I just don't feel like it's all that good for you in that large of a quantity (1/4 cup per small serving).
I'm also excited to get some more thai coconuts and see how adventurous I can be with those. I hope to make lots of puddings & smoothies with the meat, and enjoy the icy cold milk first thing in the morning, followed by OJ a little later. I have found ice cold liquid to be really good on my stomach so I also bought some grapefruit to juice today too.
DH was home this afternoon so I took Jack with me and got some goodies. I loaded up on bananas because their 25 cent "too ripe" bananas (they're sooo perfect, not at all too ripe!) box was full to overflowing! I brought home 3 big bags of bananas that cost me $2.50 each. I'm excited to start making my chocolate banana shakes again using frozen bananas. Mmmmm! I never know when their box is going to be full or empty, it's totally the luck of the draw.
As far as green smoothies go, I am not going to be religious with them. Yes, they are ideal but for right now I have to go with what I'm okay with eating without getting sick. I'm trying to faithfully take my $37 a bottle all natural prenatal vitamins so I feel good about getting those extra nutrients. I'm excited to see how I feel without sugar, dairy, and white flour!
I may have some salmon (since I have 4-5 fillets that need to be eaten asap) and/or cooked veggies if I want........just depends on how I feel. It's much better than brownies, that's for sure!
Okay, I'm off to order some food, namely barhi dates . Can't wait until those arrive; they're my raw candy! =)
Today I have actually been 100% raw except for about...3/4 cup worth of brownies I had this morning. THAT was emotional eating cuz I felt awful and just wanted something yummy to put in my mouth.
The reason I am titling this post "Accountability" is because I plan to write down what I'm eating each day and see if that helps. I don't want to emotional eat, and I really don't want to feel this sick, AND I don't want to gain alot of weight. I can tell now by the way my clothes fit that I'm gaining faster from eating the way I've been. I'll bet I'm already at the 6lb weight gain mark, but I haven't even checked..I don't need that kind of negativity in my mind, lol. Better to just focus on one day, one meal at a time.
So today so far (it's 6pm) I ate:
**6 oranges, juiced
**3/4 cup of brownies (not raw)
**1/2 pineapple
**2 roma tomatoes sliced w/pepper & salt
**2 big leaves of red leaf lettuce in a wrap with: 2 medium tomatoes, 1 small avocado, 1/2 cucumber, tobasco sauce, sprinkling of dry mustard, salt, & pepper. That was really savory & yummy alternative to just plain old salad.
**Revisited an old "love" I haven't had in ages! Chocolate coconut pudding. Mmmmm it was delicious, filling, and yum-o. Totally hit the spot.
I'm getting revved up to eat just plain old raw again, making as many variations of different raw recipes that I can and/or feel like. I don't plan on eating low fat right right now - but will still stay away from nuts for the most part. They just really don't agree with my stomach unless they're eaten alone as a mono meal. Mostly, sunflower seeds are what I can handle so I plan to get some of those. And also dates! I remember those! I have Ani Phyo's book and she uses mostly dates as her form of sweetener, which I like. My chocolate pudding calls for quite a bit of agave syrup as a sweetener, and I just don't feel like it's all that good for you in that large of a quantity (1/4 cup per small serving).
I'm also excited to get some more thai coconuts and see how adventurous I can be with those. I hope to make lots of puddings & smoothies with the meat, and enjoy the icy cold milk first thing in the morning, followed by OJ a little later. I have found ice cold liquid to be really good on my stomach so I also bought some grapefruit to juice today too.
DH was home this afternoon so I took Jack with me and got some goodies. I loaded up on bananas because their 25 cent "too ripe" bananas (they're sooo perfect, not at all too ripe!) box was full to overflowing! I brought home 3 big bags of bananas that cost me $2.50 each. I'm excited to start making my chocolate banana shakes again using frozen bananas. Mmmmm! I never know when their box is going to be full or empty, it's totally the luck of the draw.
As far as green smoothies go, I am not going to be religious with them. Yes, they are ideal but for right now I have to go with what I'm okay with eating without getting sick. I'm trying to faithfully take my $37 a bottle all natural prenatal vitamins so I feel good about getting those extra nutrients. I'm excited to see how I feel without sugar, dairy, and white flour!
I may have some salmon (since I have 4-5 fillets that need to be eaten asap) and/or cooked veggies if I want........just depends on how I feel. It's much better than brownies, that's for sure!
Okay, I'm off to order some food, namely barhi dates . Can't wait until those arrive; they're my raw candy! =)
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Week 8: Day 3
I'm feeling quite sick today. Usually in the morning I have way more energy and can do quite a bit around the house, on the computer, etc - then when it gets to be about 1-2pm it starts a downward spiral for me. But this morning first thing when I got up, I threw up....there wasn't anything TO throw up since it was early morning, but it wasn't a good feeling. It seems like once I cross that threshold of "it has happened, it might happen again" then I am twice more likely to not be able to talk myself out of it when I do feel like throwing up. =( It's either because of the way I'm eating OR this baby is a girl, but either way - I am definitely more sick this time around.
I was talking to my mom yesterday who had 11 children and was very sick with each one of them in the first trimester, and she said it was like that for her too. She said some days it was all she could do to put dinner on the table, and then had to go straight to bed after that. The reason, she said, is because by then (dinner time) you are getting really tired and that makes it worse.
So I wonder if I were to faithfully take a nap every day, if that would help? I don't know. I need to eat more raw food, though - most days it's just about 15% raw or so that I eat, like maybe 12 oranges juiced and that's all. I'm going to try. I bought five boxes of Satsuma oranges yesterday and I should try just having those on hand. Bananas are hard for me to eat because they're prone to causing that gag reflex when ripe......but in smoothies would be good still.
Anyway, I wanted to say that I weighed myself for the first time in a while on Sunday. That was week 8, day 1. I was at 130lbs, which means a 3lb weight gain since the beginning of pregnancy. Not too bad, but if that continues (3lbs every 2 weeks) I'm in trouble. I just need to cut down on the amount of cooked food (junk mostly) is all.
I was remembering a comment I made to my mom when I was pregnant with one of my kids before raw foods. I remember we were going to a church function, a banquet, and I was at the tail end of my being sick. I still felt queasy but good enough to get out of the house - so probably around the 11-12 week mark. I told her, "I've already gained 16lbs!" and we were both appalled at that thought, even though it happened to me every time.
So compare that with my raw pregnancy, where I gained 6lbs by 10 weeks.....about an 8lb difference probably. Okay, so another thought - I am now at 8 weeks, and I've gained 3lbs. So by 10 weeks last time I'd gained 6lbs....which means I'm actually on target. That would have meant gaining another 3lbs in the next 2 weeks just to be the same as my pregnancy with Jack. But the cool thing is this time, I started out at 7lbs less than with Jack. So by week 10 I weighed in at 140lbs, and by week 10 if I gain 3 more pounds, I'll be weighing in at 133lbs. It's not something I plan to obsess about at all, this last paragraph is more informationally interesting for me in a journal sort of sense, just writing as I think out loud. =)
I was talking to my mom yesterday who had 11 children and was very sick with each one of them in the first trimester, and she said it was like that for her too. She said some days it was all she could do to put dinner on the table, and then had to go straight to bed after that. The reason, she said, is because by then (dinner time) you are getting really tired and that makes it worse.
So I wonder if I were to faithfully take a nap every day, if that would help? I don't know. I need to eat more raw food, though - most days it's just about 15% raw or so that I eat, like maybe 12 oranges juiced and that's all. I'm going to try. I bought five boxes of Satsuma oranges yesterday and I should try just having those on hand. Bananas are hard for me to eat because they're prone to causing that gag reflex when ripe......but in smoothies would be good still.
Anyway, I wanted to say that I weighed myself for the first time in a while on Sunday. That was week 8, day 1. I was at 130lbs, which means a 3lb weight gain since the beginning of pregnancy. Not too bad, but if that continues (3lbs every 2 weeks) I'm in trouble. I just need to cut down on the amount of cooked food (junk mostly) is all.
I was remembering a comment I made to my mom when I was pregnant with one of my kids before raw foods. I remember we were going to a church function, a banquet, and I was at the tail end of my being sick. I still felt queasy but good enough to get out of the house - so probably around the 11-12 week mark. I told her, "I've already gained 16lbs!" and we were both appalled at that thought, even though it happened to me every time.
So compare that with my raw pregnancy, where I gained 6lbs by 10 weeks.....about an 8lb difference probably. Okay, so another thought - I am now at 8 weeks, and I've gained 3lbs. So by 10 weeks last time I'd gained 6lbs....which means I'm actually on target. That would have meant gaining another 3lbs in the next 2 weeks just to be the same as my pregnancy with Jack. But the cool thing is this time, I started out at 7lbs less than with Jack. So by week 10 I weighed in at 140lbs, and by week 10 if I gain 3 more pounds, I'll be weighing in at 133lbs. It's not something I plan to obsess about at all, this last paragraph is more informationally interesting for me in a journal sort of sense, just writing as I think out loud. =)
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Week 8: Day 1
Awww....I just googled a pregnancy calendar to see how far along I am, and it's so precious to see what all is forming already!! I mean, this early in the game I'm always concentrating on staying alive during the waves of nausea and fighting with/loving food. I give little thought to the actual baby, except for looking at my dear sweet baby boy and loving the fact that I get another one of "him". He's so deliciously adorable I just can't stand it sometimes. That's it. Yep, I was meant to have babies....lol!
Today on the calendar it said: "Baby's fingers and toes are present, although they may still be webbed." How fun!
This time around I *think* I've decided not to find out the sex. Last pregnancy, I went to a normal OBGYN for the first 26 weeks or so, and had my routine ultrasound at 18 weeks, finding out it was a boy. But this time I plan to go to the same place, the waterbirth center, and they don't do routine ultrasounds. I think if I want one, I have to initiate it myself and do it at the hospital, billing my insurance that way. So anyway - I think it would be fun to have it be a surprise, especially after that last push and knowing that soon soon soon I'll meet this little one and find out if Jack has a brother or sister. Plus, it's something else that's fun to tell family/friends when they call.
I'm noticing really weird things about this pregnancy. I haven't been able to stay raw by any means - the most I've been able to do is stay away from meat except for a few occasions (beef stew that was just too absolutely tantalizing in smell, and then a turkey sandwich a few days later). I mostly stay away from sugar except for when I make this pumpkin bread that is the BOMB (and all my children agree; it gets gobbled up so fast!) but that's just because it really is not appetizing to me at all.
But what I've been noticing is that even though I feel really sick, even to the point of standing there barely able to hold it in, I still do not find food to be repulsive. In pregnancies past, SAD ones, I would not be able to walk into the kitchen without practically gagging, and especially not the fridge. But like tonight, I started feeling really sick and what sounded good to be was a hearty vegetable soup! So I went ahead and made it up - cut up everything by scratch which included potatoes, onions, garlic, bell peppers, tomatoes, celery, and a can of beans. I spent about an hour making this big pot of soup and relished every bite! Before, I would have never been able to do that.
This verse has been of help to me, shared by my friend RuthAnne: Proverbs 18:14 "The spirit of a man will sustain him in sickness, but who can bear a broken spirit?"
DH shared with me a story that RuthAnne shared with him during our recent youth conference, that an elder in our church's wife went through an extremely difficult time after baby #6, and that he didn't even recognize her because of the depression. But he said that her spirit remained strong in the Lord, and it was the same as it had always been despite the outward sufferings. That spoke to me so much! Because you know how it can be easy to start getting into self pity and like man, I have it so much harder than everyone else! But that effects my spirit, when I give in to those thoughts. I would much rather be laying on the couch fighting the urge to throw up with kids piled all around me, yet in rest and having that serenity of spirit that comes from God working with me. Rather than irritated and giving myself an ulcer wishing my sufferings away, lol!
I have also been in that spirit of taking things in the moment, RIGHT NOW, and that is all that matters. Wow, we sure can create quite the thought castles of this and that - how it will be later on today when my husband is gone.....etc. But God knows those needs and He is right there to help me right now - there is grace for the situation I am in right now.
Funny thing - speaking of that. I was kind of dreading the next two days because DH had a business trip to Seattle and it has been such a blessing to have him home in the evening because that is when I'm feeling the worst. Especially getting the kids to bed is the hardest, trying to pray with them and listen to their little thoughts and all the while gritting my teeth and breathing in-out-in-out trying not to throw up (which I haven't yet, super thankful for that!!!!!). So I was in a good spirit outwardly, but inwardly was fighting against this dread of that time....
...and then as I was reading my oldest son (7) a story on the couch all of a sudden I realized DH was standing in the kitchen staring at me in this really weird way (turns out he was thinking hard, and was just staring in my direction, not AT me). LOL. So I was like....what?? And he said hey, can I talk to you for a second...privately? I'm like um...okay....be right back, son.
So in the other room he said - you know how I go to Seattle sometimes and always wish I could take the kids with me, but there is always school so it doesn't work out? What do you think about me taking the four older ones with me, since there is no school this week?
I was so shocked! Usually I am the one to suggest things like that, but I didn't even think of that - and the fact that he wanted to take all FOUR of them with him? I mean they're ages 9,7,6,4 - that's like prime "teasing" age, lol.
So anyway, long story short - I have been immensely enjoying my two babies this evening and have two more nights by "myself"!!! What a treat and also what a special blessing/break from God, who knows what I need. =)
Today on the calendar it said: "Baby's fingers and toes are present, although they may still be webbed." How fun!
This time around I *think* I've decided not to find out the sex. Last pregnancy, I went to a normal OBGYN for the first 26 weeks or so, and had my routine ultrasound at 18 weeks, finding out it was a boy. But this time I plan to go to the same place, the waterbirth center, and they don't do routine ultrasounds. I think if I want one, I have to initiate it myself and do it at the hospital, billing my insurance that way. So anyway - I think it would be fun to have it be a surprise, especially after that last push and knowing that soon soon soon I'll meet this little one and find out if Jack has a brother or sister. Plus, it's something else that's fun to tell family/friends when they call.
I'm noticing really weird things about this pregnancy. I haven't been able to stay raw by any means - the most I've been able to do is stay away from meat except for a few occasions (beef stew that was just too absolutely tantalizing in smell, and then a turkey sandwich a few days later). I mostly stay away from sugar except for when I make this pumpkin bread that is the BOMB (and all my children agree; it gets gobbled up so fast!) but that's just because it really is not appetizing to me at all.
But what I've been noticing is that even though I feel really sick, even to the point of standing there barely able to hold it in, I still do not find food to be repulsive. In pregnancies past, SAD ones, I would not be able to walk into the kitchen without practically gagging, and especially not the fridge. But like tonight, I started feeling really sick and what sounded good to be was a hearty vegetable soup! So I went ahead and made it up - cut up everything by scratch which included potatoes, onions, garlic, bell peppers, tomatoes, celery, and a can of beans. I spent about an hour making this big pot of soup and relished every bite! Before, I would have never been able to do that.
This verse has been of help to me, shared by my friend RuthAnne: Proverbs 18:14 "The spirit of a man will sustain him in sickness, but who can bear a broken spirit?"
DH shared with me a story that RuthAnne shared with him during our recent youth conference, that an elder in our church's wife went through an extremely difficult time after baby #6, and that he didn't even recognize her because of the depression. But he said that her spirit remained strong in the Lord, and it was the same as it had always been despite the outward sufferings. That spoke to me so much! Because you know how it can be easy to start getting into self pity and like man, I have it so much harder than everyone else! But that effects my spirit, when I give in to those thoughts. I would much rather be laying on the couch fighting the urge to throw up with kids piled all around me, yet in rest and having that serenity of spirit that comes from God working with me. Rather than irritated and giving myself an ulcer wishing my sufferings away, lol!
I have also been in that spirit of taking things in the moment, RIGHT NOW, and that is all that matters. Wow, we sure can create quite the thought castles of this and that - how it will be later on today when my husband is gone.....etc. But God knows those needs and He is right there to help me right now - there is grace for the situation I am in right now.
Funny thing - speaking of that. I was kind of dreading the next two days because DH had a business trip to Seattle and it has been such a blessing to have him home in the evening because that is when I'm feeling the worst. Especially getting the kids to bed is the hardest, trying to pray with them and listen to their little thoughts and all the while gritting my teeth and breathing in-out-in-out trying not to throw up (which I haven't yet, super thankful for that!!!!!). So I was in a good spirit outwardly, but inwardly was fighting against this dread of that time....
...and then as I was reading my oldest son (7) a story on the couch all of a sudden I realized DH was standing in the kitchen staring at me in this really weird way (turns out he was thinking hard, and was just staring in my direction, not AT me). LOL. So I was like....what?? And he said hey, can I talk to you for a second...privately? I'm like um...okay....be right back, son.
So in the other room he said - you know how I go to Seattle sometimes and always wish I could take the kids with me, but there is always school so it doesn't work out? What do you think about me taking the four older ones with me, since there is no school this week?
I was so shocked! Usually I am the one to suggest things like that, but I didn't even think of that - and the fact that he wanted to take all FOUR of them with him? I mean they're ages 9,7,6,4 - that's like prime "teasing" age, lol.
So anyway, long story short - I have been immensely enjoying my two babies this evening and have two more nights by "myself"!!! What a treat and also what a special blessing/break from God, who knows what I need. =)
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
My cup runneth over.....
Today has been such a good day! Things have been going so well, and it isn't the Unisom because I forgot to take it last night - oops! I was dreading a sick day today, but wah-lah, wasn't very sick at all! (Except for my hacking cough & runny nose/conjested feeling which are hanging on forever!!)
It was a really weird day, actually. I woke up at 7:40 and got all the kids dressed/fed/changed/lunch made & out the door early, by 8:35. And all this without eating anything! Except for the prenatal vitamins & water, anyway. But that's kind of strange, because usually I wake up feeling nauseous and it gets progressively worse until I eat something.
So when we came back, I was able to pick up/tidy the house including the kitchen so everything was clean and then sat down with this week's grocery ads and a huge bowl of seedless red grapes. Which, my 2 year old helped me eat them quite fast....we bought two whole bunches yesterday and they're already both gone! They were really good, cold and crispy and juicy/sweet at Albertson's earlier this week. I should've bought more at $.99 a lb! Oh well.
This week's Safeway ad promises 5lb boxes of Satsuma mandarin oranges for $3.99! I'm quite excited about that because they're the perfect snack to eat whenever, especially while watching a movie. And ice cold - yum. There wasn't any limit listed so I plan on buying probably 3-4 boxes. We can go through an entire box in one sitting with all the family gathered around at the table chowing down so.....I might end up making two trips this week.
I'm enjoying my children so much! Especially my 2 year old who can be a serious pain, but is so darn cute with her little lips, plump cheeks, curly hair and mischevious brownish-green eyes framed in long lashes. Such a pretty little girl, total eye candy. =) She recently learned the word "tupid" (stupid) and informed me the other day when I asked her if she wanted to help me wash the floor that it was a "tupid job!". Good grief! She was in a bad mood, though - usually she loves helping me.
I'm really thankful for the lack of nausea - but to make it clear, there definitely IS nausea and also that feeling of "yuck" that is going on all the time except for about 20 minutes after I fill up my stomach. All food also tastes weird like it does when you have a cold. But I am also a bit worried to a small degree because I know that lack of nausea can equal something wrong with the pregnancy. So I am trying to be open to that possibility, knowing that if God were to take this little one home, it would be the most perfect for him/her.
I have been reading the most awesome book. "Stepping Heavenward ~ one woman's journey to Godliness" by Mrs. E. Prentiss. It was recommend by a Godfearing mom named Jennifer over at homekeepingheart , who just had her 5th baby - her oldest is 6 years. This book is the journal of a woman who starts writing when she is 16. She's a totally normal 16 year old, but it is set in the 1830's or so. A really easy read and interesting - but the things she writes about make me think long & hard about my own walk with God. One thing she wrote about accepting the children that God brings her really stood out. In the end of her life which actually is full of illness because of her frail body, she has seven children...one of which dies, the oldest, at age 4. It is amazing to see her strength and yet the battles she went through and the struggles in her spirit to come to the faith that she came to.
She writes:
"I celebrated my little Una's third birthday by presenting her with a new brother. Both the children welcomed him with delight that was of itself compensation enough for all it cost me to get up such a celebration. Martha (her sister in law who lives with her) takes a most prosaic view of this proceeding, in which she says I shall now have one mouth the more to fill and two feet the more to shoe, more disturbed nights, more laborious days, and less leisure or visiting, reading, music, and drawing.
Well!! This is one side of the story, to be sure, but I look at the other. Here is a sweet, fragrant mouth to kiss; here are two more feet to make music with their pattering about my nursery. Here is a soul to train for God; and the body in which it dwells is worthy all it will cost, since it is the abode of a kingly tenant. I may see less friends, but I have gained one dearer than them all, to whom , while I minister in Christ's name, I make a willing sacrifice of what little leisure for my own recreation my other darlings left me. Yes, my precious baby, you are welcome to your mother's heart, welcome to her time, her strength, her health, her tenderest cares, to her lifelong prayers! Oh, how rich I am, how truly, wondrously blest!"
That just gives me goosebumps - what a thing to write in your most private journal! Because that is where you express your deepest, most true self.....and to have it like she had it is really my heart's desire. To look at raising my children in such a way that I say they are WELCOME to my free time, to my sleep, to whatever it is that I give as a sacrifice to raise souls for Him. Really special, and that is why I'm having a good day. =)
I also wanted to note that this pregnancy I am trying hard to take my prenatal vitamins religiously. I did alot of research and found what I believe to be the best of the best, especially for a person who wishes to be raw vegan. They're quite the horse pills and it requires taking 6 of them per day, but I feel like I am giving my baby the nourishment it needs for sure by taking these. And hmmm I wonder if that's why I've been feeling better? I doubt it, but you never know. =)
I haven't been doing very good with raw foods lately. I definitely don't care as much about my weight right now as I did last time, but who knows....when you feel nauseous you don't really care. Mostly it's that when I do eat raw, I don't feel good at all - so there is no reward for eating the right way like before. Although I do dearly love my OJ........it's just that the oranges I got recently have really hard rinds and are hard to juice. =( So it's not as easy as before...I can't wait for the better oranges to start arriving in the stores and especially for the really low prices of 35c lb I've seen them get to before. Right now they're 88c a lb which makes a BIG difference when you're buying a big box! I'm trying TRYING to eat healthy cooked, but it isn't so easy. But I'm taking it one day at a time so....hopefully I'll be out of the woods soon.
It was a really weird day, actually. I woke up at 7:40 and got all the kids dressed/fed/changed/lunch made & out the door early, by 8:35. And all this without eating anything! Except for the prenatal vitamins & water, anyway. But that's kind of strange, because usually I wake up feeling nauseous and it gets progressively worse until I eat something.
So when we came back, I was able to pick up/tidy the house including the kitchen so everything was clean and then sat down with this week's grocery ads and a huge bowl of seedless red grapes. Which, my 2 year old helped me eat them quite fast....we bought two whole bunches yesterday and they're already both gone! They were really good, cold and crispy and juicy/sweet at Albertson's earlier this week. I should've bought more at $.99 a lb! Oh well.
This week's Safeway ad promises 5lb boxes of Satsuma mandarin oranges for $3.99! I'm quite excited about that because they're the perfect snack to eat whenever, especially while watching a movie. And ice cold - yum. There wasn't any limit listed so I plan on buying probably 3-4 boxes. We can go through an entire box in one sitting with all the family gathered around at the table chowing down so.....I might end up making two trips this week.
I'm enjoying my children so much! Especially my 2 year old who can be a serious pain, but is so darn cute with her little lips, plump cheeks, curly hair and mischevious brownish-green eyes framed in long lashes. Such a pretty little girl, total eye candy. =) She recently learned the word "tupid" (stupid) and informed me the other day when I asked her if she wanted to help me wash the floor that it was a "tupid job!". Good grief! She was in a bad mood, though - usually she loves helping me.
I'm really thankful for the lack of nausea - but to make it clear, there definitely IS nausea and also that feeling of "yuck" that is going on all the time except for about 20 minutes after I fill up my stomach. All food also tastes weird like it does when you have a cold. But I am also a bit worried to a small degree because I know that lack of nausea can equal something wrong with the pregnancy. So I am trying to be open to that possibility, knowing that if God were to take this little one home, it would be the most perfect for him/her.
I have been reading the most awesome book. "Stepping Heavenward ~ one woman's journey to Godliness" by Mrs. E. Prentiss. It was recommend by a Godfearing mom named Jennifer over at homekeepingheart , who just had her 5th baby - her oldest is 6 years. This book is the journal of a woman who starts writing when she is 16. She's a totally normal 16 year old, but it is set in the 1830's or so. A really easy read and interesting - but the things she writes about make me think long & hard about my own walk with God. One thing she wrote about accepting the children that God brings her really stood out. In the end of her life which actually is full of illness because of her frail body, she has seven children...one of which dies, the oldest, at age 4. It is amazing to see her strength and yet the battles she went through and the struggles in her spirit to come to the faith that she came to.
She writes:
"I celebrated my little Una's third birthday by presenting her with a new brother. Both the children welcomed him with delight that was of itself compensation enough for all it cost me to get up such a celebration. Martha (her sister in law who lives with her) takes a most prosaic view of this proceeding, in which she says I shall now have one mouth the more to fill and two feet the more to shoe, more disturbed nights, more laborious days, and less leisure or visiting, reading, music, and drawing.
Well!! This is one side of the story, to be sure, but I look at the other. Here is a sweet, fragrant mouth to kiss; here are two more feet to make music with their pattering about my nursery. Here is a soul to train for God; and the body in which it dwells is worthy all it will cost, since it is the abode of a kingly tenant. I may see less friends, but I have gained one dearer than them all, to whom , while I minister in Christ's name, I make a willing sacrifice of what little leisure for my own recreation my other darlings left me. Yes, my precious baby, you are welcome to your mother's heart, welcome to her time, her strength, her health, her tenderest cares, to her lifelong prayers! Oh, how rich I am, how truly, wondrously blest!"
That just gives me goosebumps - what a thing to write in your most private journal! Because that is where you express your deepest, most true self.....and to have it like she had it is really my heart's desire. To look at raising my children in such a way that I say they are WELCOME to my free time, to my sleep, to whatever it is that I give as a sacrifice to raise souls for Him. Really special, and that is why I'm having a good day. =)
I also wanted to note that this pregnancy I am trying hard to take my prenatal vitamins religiously. I did alot of research and found what I believe to be the best of the best, especially for a person who wishes to be raw vegan. They're quite the horse pills and it requires taking 6 of them per day, but I feel like I am giving my baby the nourishment it needs for sure by taking these. And hmmm I wonder if that's why I've been feeling better? I doubt it, but you never know. =)
I haven't been doing very good with raw foods lately. I definitely don't care as much about my weight right now as I did last time, but who knows....when you feel nauseous you don't really care. Mostly it's that when I do eat raw, I don't feel good at all - so there is no reward for eating the right way like before. Although I do dearly love my OJ........it's just that the oranges I got recently have really hard rinds and are hard to juice. =( So it's not as easy as before...I can't wait for the better oranges to start arriving in the stores and especially for the really low prices of 35c lb I've seen them get to before. Right now they're 88c a lb which makes a BIG difference when you're buying a big box! I'm trying TRYING to eat healthy cooked, but it isn't so easy. But I'm taking it one day at a time so....hopefully I'll be out of the woods soon.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Unisom totally worked!!
Last night I took 1/2 of a tiny unisom sleeping pill before bed and had no morning sickness all night and all day until just a twinge of it around 1pm or so. It felt very strange to wake up at different times (4 year old had a bad dream, baby woke up twice for a bottle) and feel genuine hunger in my stomach, but not any morning sickness. I don't know if it was just coincidence or not? I'm enjoying it, regardless. =)
My kids are doing so well, this morning my oldest actually babysat while I had some quiet time & naptime in my room for 5 hours! Not uninterrupted, of course, but what a treat...she even made breakfast & lunch for them all. And helped clean up alot of the house - I paid her $2 an hour + $1 to make lunch. =) She doesn't change diapers yet (she's 9) which is probably a good thing, because both of the little ones had extremely poopy diapers. Good thing I have a cold and can't smell anything, lol.
Another thing is I'm finding through trial & error that my body does not seem to be responding to raw food very well. I feel the worst when I have been living on green smoothies & fruit all day...but when I have some rice, or steamed veggies, or even some homemade pizza loaded with fresh veggies - I feel alot better! This is a different scenario for me. Usually if and when I eat cooked, it is total junk - or whatever I'm craving. Alot of times that means sugar. Lately I have not been interested in sugar in the LEAST. Thankfully. Everything actually tastes kind of different to me - but it could also be because I have this awful cold.
I have also been having alot of raw halzelnuts from a local farm - they're not soaked, but they make me feel better for a while. Then, not so good after a while. Probably should be soaking them but it's almost impossible when you're cracking each one to eat it, and most of the time they crumble into bits after being cracked anyway.
My kids are doing so well, this morning my oldest actually babysat while I had some quiet time & naptime in my room for 5 hours! Not uninterrupted, of course, but what a treat...she even made breakfast & lunch for them all. And helped clean up alot of the house - I paid her $2 an hour + $1 to make lunch. =) She doesn't change diapers yet (she's 9) which is probably a good thing, because both of the little ones had extremely poopy diapers. Good thing I have a cold and can't smell anything, lol.
Another thing is I'm finding through trial & error that my body does not seem to be responding to raw food very well. I feel the worst when I have been living on green smoothies & fruit all day...but when I have some rice, or steamed veggies, or even some homemade pizza loaded with fresh veggies - I feel alot better! This is a different scenario for me. Usually if and when I eat cooked, it is total junk - or whatever I'm craving. Alot of times that means sugar. Lately I have not been interested in sugar in the LEAST. Thankfully. Everything actually tastes kind of different to me - but it could also be because I have this awful cold.
I have also been having alot of raw halzelnuts from a local farm - they're not soaked, but they make me feel better for a while. Then, not so good after a while. Probably should be soaking them but it's almost impossible when you're cracking each one to eat it, and most of the time they crumble into bits after being cracked anyway.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Morning Sickness
I'm experiencing morning sickness more severe than my previous raw pregnancy with Jack. This time it is quite constant, and only lets up for maybe 30 minutes after I eat if that, depending on what I ate. It's been rough adjusting to the fact that it looks like I'm going to go through the dreaded hard-core morning sickness again when I pretty much did expect it to be not so hard- and I don't mean that in a derogatory sense, really. It truly does feel like this never ending pain that is really hard to get through - always constant, always there...probably what hell will be like, in a way. But I am also thankful for this time because it brings me closer to God in my need - I can't do this on my own, without His strength and the faith He's given me to accept this child as a blessing straight from heaven. Who would deny that blessings are, well, blessings? =)
So far I've managed to stay about 90-100% raw, depending on the day of course. In my head I limit myself to only the options of the raw food I have on hand - but it's not really that hard. Because honestly, I don't feel like eating anything at all, so there are no cravings right now, anyway. I've been able to drink green smoothies every day which has been really nice, to know I'm getting those rich nutrients. This morning I had some pineapple ice cold from the fridge, and am now sipping on a strawberry banana smoothie, also icy cold. That seems to be what I like right now - everything has to be icy cold, even my water, or it just kind of turns my stomach.
Yesterday I had a really rough day, I had many moments of just sitting there so exhausted and feeling so sick, yet knowing that I only had a moment to rest before I had to go get other things done. I realized that this is when I need to ask for help, also knowing that it could possibly get even worse. I haven't thrown up yet but I've definitely been close.
So I called my husband & we talked it over, and we're hiring a good friend of ours from church, Elmina, actually the same one who came and "nanny"-ed for us when baby #4 & #5 were born. She is going to come help out for 4-5 hours once a week...just enough to help keep up on the laundry, baths, vacuuming, grocery shopping. Whatever I need at the time. DH has been a HUGE help so far - even more than any other pregnancy, it's been such a blessing! Such a relief to have his help and not feel like I'm being a burden on him after a long hard day at work. Elmina's schedule is pretty open right now so she said if we need her more, she'll be glad to do it.
Laying in bed this morning I remembered Unisom & the motion sickness wrist band (can't remember the name)! I had forgotten about them because I didn't use them with Jack at all, but I desperately relied on them for Marie, my last SAD pregnancy. I think I'm going to try the Unisom again...I'm hesitant to use drugs because I'm eating raw and that really goes against the whole cleansing the body raw mentality, but at this point if anything can help so I can take care of my family, I'll try it. As long as it's not harmful to the baby, of course. It did work for me before.
The motion sickness wristband also worked, but only for about 3 weeks and then it seemed like my body got immune to it or something. But it was wonderful for those 3 weeks. I had been flat on my back throwing up for weeks & weeks, and was quite pale and very weak when I put it on. I remember within 1/2 an hour I was up & making dinner for my family, even entertaining a guest - and my husband was so amazed. He kept telling our guest over & over that this is really rare for me to be feeling so well in the first trimester.
So far I've managed to stay about 90-100% raw, depending on the day of course. In my head I limit myself to only the options of the raw food I have on hand - but it's not really that hard. Because honestly, I don't feel like eating anything at all, so there are no cravings right now, anyway. I've been able to drink green smoothies every day which has been really nice, to know I'm getting those rich nutrients. This morning I had some pineapple ice cold from the fridge, and am now sipping on a strawberry banana smoothie, also icy cold. That seems to be what I like right now - everything has to be icy cold, even my water, or it just kind of turns my stomach.
Yesterday I had a really rough day, I had many moments of just sitting there so exhausted and feeling so sick, yet knowing that I only had a moment to rest before I had to go get other things done. I realized that this is when I need to ask for help, also knowing that it could possibly get even worse. I haven't thrown up yet but I've definitely been close.
So I called my husband & we talked it over, and we're hiring a good friend of ours from church, Elmina, actually the same one who came and "nanny"-ed for us when baby #4 & #5 were born. She is going to come help out for 4-5 hours once a week...just enough to help keep up on the laundry, baths, vacuuming, grocery shopping. Whatever I need at the time. DH has been a HUGE help so far - even more than any other pregnancy, it's been such a blessing! Such a relief to have his help and not feel like I'm being a burden on him after a long hard day at work. Elmina's schedule is pretty open right now so she said if we need her more, she'll be glad to do it.
Laying in bed this morning I remembered Unisom & the motion sickness wrist band (can't remember the name)! I had forgotten about them because I didn't use them with Jack at all, but I desperately relied on them for Marie, my last SAD pregnancy. I think I'm going to try the Unisom again...I'm hesitant to use drugs because I'm eating raw and that really goes against the whole cleansing the body raw mentality, but at this point if anything can help so I can take care of my family, I'll try it. As long as it's not harmful to the baby, of course. It did work for me before.
The motion sickness wristband also worked, but only for about 3 weeks and then it seemed like my body got immune to it or something. But it was wonderful for those 3 weeks. I had been flat on my back throwing up for weeks & weeks, and was quite pale and very weak when I put it on. I remember within 1/2 an hour I was up & making dinner for my family, even entertaining a guest - and my husband was so amazed. He kept telling our guest over & over that this is really rare for me to be feeling so well in the first trimester.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
And so I'm back....Week 6
It's been a while! So I'm back, and just found out last week that I am pregnant with baby #7. This news was received with excitement and joy on my part - same with DH, but more shock on his part. I think it always shocks him, lol! But once we settle in to the fact that we're having another baby for real, this is REAL, and not just a mistaken 2-line reading on a pregnancy test - it becomes a happy fact in our lives.
So the first thing I thought about, and actually something that is on my mind often when I have thought about getting pregnant again, is the fact (and comfort!) that when I was pregnant with both Jack and the previous miscarriage, I was not near as sick w/morning sickness while eating raw foods. I was so delighted and happy with this fact, because it made the thought of being pregnant less a dreaded thing for me.
I also can't say enough how awesome it is to have completed a raw pregnancy and natural birth with Jack. It's like all the worries, fears, wondering .... they have been put to rest as he was born a healthy 8lb 5oz, fully happy and continues to be. There are some things I'm going to change for this pregnancy, though. This time I plan to take my multi vitamins as regularly as I can remember to take them. They're these HUGE horse pill looking things and I have to take 8 of them per day, but I feel more comfortable taking them, especially since they're of the more expensive type and all natural, as raw as a person can get.
So I was hoping very much that being raw would make a difference in my morning sickness. I found out I was pregnant about 1 week ago, and am due on July 5th so that makes me about 6 weeks. The nausea started pretty much about 2 days after I found out, which is normal. It has steadily gotten worse every single day, and yesterday was the worst.
I haven't read back in my blog to see how the morning sickness was specifically with Jack yet, it'll be fun to compare this & other things as I progress in this pregnancy. But at least for now, I don't feel it is at it's absolute worst. For me, the worst in previously pregnancies has been when I am flat on my back on the couch VERY nauseous with a bowl nearby, throwing up quite often - and the thought of food, ANY food makes me so completely ill. I force myself to eat small bits of something even though the thought of that particular food makes me gag, and it does help - but only for a little while because it's not very much food. It is all I can do to take care of the children's basic needs from the couch, only getting up to feed them, change diapers, and put them to bed. My house and everything else I have NO care for - I can't even handle walking into the kitchen. It has often been like this for 2 1/2 months solid.
So as I'm typing this, I am so thankful it hasn't been like that this time! At least, not yet. =) One thing I have to remember is that each pregnancy IS different, and especially if this is a girl, it could be that I get really sick with this one as opposed to my last raw pregnancy, which was a boy. But looking back, I always got sick for each one and I have 3 boys/3 girls so......that theory doesn't really apply (being sicker with a certain sex).
So far I have felt nauseous but as soon as I eat at least one whole banana, usually two, I feel about 90% better. Like this morning I woke up feeling SO sick - I couldn't even sleep I felt so sick. So I got up earlier than my alarm clock was set for (6:50) and made some fresh squeezed OJ. That didn't settle so well with my stomach, so I made a huge giant green smoothie with the rest of the OJ, which included about 6 oranges squeezed, a whole head of red leafy greens, 2 cups of water, 1 pear, 5 bananas, and 2 apples. One 32oz. bottle I always give to DH for his breakfast on the way to work (this motivates me to get up & make it, because otherwise he usually doesn't have time to make breakfast and will buy it on the way which = money spent) and the rest I put in the fridge to save for later.
It's really really soothing for me, at least right now, to have that premade green smoothie, ice cold, waiting in the fridge when I first feel the twinges of nausea coming back. As soon as I drink about 25oz or so of that, the world turns right side up and I have about an hour or so of almost feeling completely normal to do what I need to do. Right now I need to get the kids ready for school & make their lunches so I better scoot.....I'll write more later. I also have some pictures I wanted to put up, and then write about my weight adventures since Jack was born. I love having a previous raw pregnancy to compare to!
Okay, back again! LOL I have this four year old little girl who LOVES her Mommy. She's always giving me kisses and says "I love you, Mom!" about 30 times per day, randomly, and then waits with anticipation for me to respond with an "I love you too, Grace!" She's also always chattering away about this or that, usually when I'm trying to concentrate on one thing or another (book, movie, computer) like right now when I'm trying to put my thoughts down on paper. So anyway, if this post appears to be a bit scattered, that's why. =)
So I also wanted to write that this time I am definitely not going to stress so much about losing the weight after the baby. It took a VERY long time to get down to where I wanted to be, 120lbs, and I was often so frustrated. This time I'm going to stop & take time to smell the roses and just do the best I can - but not worry about it. I obviously know how and can get down to the weight I want to, eventually, so it'll happen again.
But I do plan to watch my weight both during the pregnancy and afterwards. Some of you might think I'm like this disciplined person.......yeah, you should've seen me the past 3 weeks before I found out I was pregnant, lol! It was like brownies were my staple food or something. LOL!
Jack was 9 months old when I quit nursing - a record for me. But the funny thing is, as soon as I put him exclusively on formula, he got quite chunky! Go figure. I still have bottles & bottles of fenugreek and a whole big bag full of mother's milk tea dried herbs...I wonder if it'll keep through next summer? I don't see why it wouldn't. As soon as I finished nursing, once he was fully weaned, I went on a 10 day master cleanse. It was really hard for me to do - for some reason, I barely made it through the 10th day and then had some potato chips that night. What in the world? I don't even LIKE potato chips, lol! I think it was too close to weaning, because I remember it happened to me before, right after I weaned my 2 year old - I was really weak and it just felt "off" for some reason. Like my body still was in the nursing mode, ready to nurse again if my baby needed it - so was still needing those extra calories or something. Next time I need to remember to wait at least a month after I completely wean...it's hard to wait because it makes me release the extra weight so easily, but anyway. We'll see.
So on this first master cleanse after the baby was born, 9 months post partum, I lost about 7lbs. I held pretty steadily at 126-127 then, for 2 whole months after that, until October. I ate mostly raw and even did a couple of challenges with some friends....but after that it was hard for me to eat 100% raw - there was always one bite or one meal of this or that SAD food I couldn't resists, even junk food. So that was frustrating, and I decided that since it was getting close to the time when I usually get pregnant again, I would do another master cleanse in October. So I started on October 2nd, 2 months after my last master cleanse (which is about the minimum you're supposed to wait between them).
This time it was pure heaven! THIS is how I remembered it, I thought. I loved it!! My goal was 120lbs, and I decided to do it for 30 days. I went & bought $100 worth of maple syrup (DUMB IDEA), enough to last me the 30 days. I say dumb idea because duh, if I was so close to my goal then didn't it occur to me that 30 days might result in too much weight loss? Um...evidently not, lol.
So on the 9th day I weighed in at 120lbs. I was so excited! I hadn't weighed that since before I was married, and I could totally fit into my wedding dress except my waist was a tiny bit snug and my boobs....well, they are quite a bit smaller now. Lots of shrinkage happening because of my babies, lol=) Goes to show your body really does shift & change in shape once you have little ones!
So I knew that usually when you go back to eating raw food after a cleanse, you gain about 2-3lbs. So my goal then was to get to 117lbs and then I would go off of it, even if I didn't use up my syrup. But then I was like gosh, I spent so much on that syrup! I still had about $30 of it left. And I felt SO good - I had tons of energy and was rarely in a bad mood. I slept good, and my only problem at that point was no clothes! I fit into a size 0 or 2, depending on what brand. My stomach was pretty much flat - when I looked in the mirror, there was no bump whatsoever, just a straight flat line all the way down. Then, a tiny blip of fat left over from having babies right below my belly button. When I sucked in my stomach, I almost looked too skinny.
Then we had a family emergency, and I went to stay with my mom for 4 nights w/the kiddos. I was thankful I was on the cleanse because it made my food situation really easy, I just made up the lemonades at night and was good to go for the rest of the day. I had lots of energy to do what I needed to do, but there was no scale in the bathroom I used so...I didn't pay attention.
On the night of the 13th day, my Dad came and talked to me. He said one thing he really missed about his parents being gone (they both died within a month of each other this summer, one very unexpectedly) was that when they saw something that seemed out of place, they came to him and talked to him about it. Not in a prying/bossy sort of way, but out of love and genuine concern and wanting things to go well with him. They were precious and we miss them so much.
He said I am like my mom - I get fixated on things and go all out, and sometimes even overboard on things that interest me. He said I've been looking really good in the past couple of months, but right now (day 13 of the cleanse) I looked like I was on meth (drugs) or something. My face was too gaunt, you could see my cheekbones, and my bones were becoming prominent. Now to me, my face looked fine, but I could tell in my pants, that my butt was getting quite lost, lol, and my shape was starting to go away. As in, shapely woman looking shape. When you get to a size 0 it's like all there is left are little girls sizes and well....I definitely don't want to have a little girl's body! Also, my sister in law who hadn't seen me in a couple of months, went home after spending some time with me & called my mom. She wanted to know what was going on with me - was I on drugs? What was wrong? I looked awful, she said.
I didn't feel like I was out of control at all, and actually I still don't - but I think the fact that I'd been really busy with the family emergency & also without a scale....sort of made me lose track. I stepped on the scale that day when I got home, fully clothed, and I was at 111! That was weird. I sort of had this moment where I kind of panicked - I didn't mean to get that low AT ALL but it did look like it, looking in the mirror.
So I was really open to what he told me, and decided that next night would be my last day. So on the 15th day I started with OJ and gradually eased into eating normal food again. I was back up to 118 within a day or two, and stayed at about 120-122 for a while. Then I talked myself into eating junk food cuz I told myself I could afford to gain a little - and went on a 3-week free for all. I didn't know at the time that I was pregnant during this lovely eating spree....mostly I just ate alot of sugar and junk food - no meat for the most part.
I decided that my ideal weight is 125 - I look the best at that weight. I also haven't worked out or gone running in over a month, so obviously if I were to lift weights and gain muscle, that number might even be a little bit higher. It feels really weird to have actually attained my goal, though - to reached what I've been striving for, for over 2 years. I'm really happy to have been too skinny and realized it, instead of always thinking I need to keep losing, losing, losing even when I'm like 105 pounds and such. That to me proves that this is not something I'm "addicted" to or whatever - I love being thin, but normal thin. I am always amazed at how much energy I have even when I haven't been working out. I feel rather bouncy sometimes, like I can just bounce/jump/run instead of normally walking to my next destination.
So I started out this pregnancy at 127lbs, which is 7lbs less than my previous pregnancy. I still plan to track my pregnancy weight because it's fascinating to me to watch the scale move so slowly over the course of the months. But also it's a good check for me, because as you can see by the 3 week binge, I can definitely get out of control if I don't watch it. Obviously I would love to have a 25lb weight gain again with this pregnancy, so we'll see.
I guess that sums it up for now - I'm going to work on some pictures of Jack and a few showing me at my skinniest (but not the very skinny master cleanse - I don't have any pictures of that). Until next time.......!
So the first thing I thought about, and actually something that is on my mind often when I have thought about getting pregnant again, is the fact (and comfort!) that when I was pregnant with both Jack and the previous miscarriage, I was not near as sick w/morning sickness while eating raw foods. I was so delighted and happy with this fact, because it made the thought of being pregnant less a dreaded thing for me.
I also can't say enough how awesome it is to have completed a raw pregnancy and natural birth with Jack. It's like all the worries, fears, wondering .... they have been put to rest as he was born a healthy 8lb 5oz, fully happy and continues to be. There are some things I'm going to change for this pregnancy, though. This time I plan to take my multi vitamins as regularly as I can remember to take them. They're these HUGE horse pill looking things and I have to take 8 of them per day, but I feel more comfortable taking them, especially since they're of the more expensive type and all natural, as raw as a person can get.
So I was hoping very much that being raw would make a difference in my morning sickness. I found out I was pregnant about 1 week ago, and am due on July 5th so that makes me about 6 weeks. The nausea started pretty much about 2 days after I found out, which is normal. It has steadily gotten worse every single day, and yesterday was the worst.
I haven't read back in my blog to see how the morning sickness was specifically with Jack yet, it'll be fun to compare this & other things as I progress in this pregnancy. But at least for now, I don't feel it is at it's absolute worst. For me, the worst in previously pregnancies has been when I am flat on my back on the couch VERY nauseous with a bowl nearby, throwing up quite often - and the thought of food, ANY food makes me so completely ill. I force myself to eat small bits of something even though the thought of that particular food makes me gag, and it does help - but only for a little while because it's not very much food. It is all I can do to take care of the children's basic needs from the couch, only getting up to feed them, change diapers, and put them to bed. My house and everything else I have NO care for - I can't even handle walking into the kitchen. It has often been like this for 2 1/2 months solid.
So as I'm typing this, I am so thankful it hasn't been like that this time! At least, not yet. =) One thing I have to remember is that each pregnancy IS different, and especially if this is a girl, it could be that I get really sick with this one as opposed to my last raw pregnancy, which was a boy. But looking back, I always got sick for each one and I have 3 boys/3 girls so......that theory doesn't really apply (being sicker with a certain sex).
So far I have felt nauseous but as soon as I eat at least one whole banana, usually two, I feel about 90% better. Like this morning I woke up feeling SO sick - I couldn't even sleep I felt so sick. So I got up earlier than my alarm clock was set for (6:50) and made some fresh squeezed OJ. That didn't settle so well with my stomach, so I made a huge giant green smoothie with the rest of the OJ, which included about 6 oranges squeezed, a whole head of red leafy greens, 2 cups of water, 1 pear, 5 bananas, and 2 apples. One 32oz. bottle I always give to DH for his breakfast on the way to work (this motivates me to get up & make it, because otherwise he usually doesn't have time to make breakfast and will buy it on the way which = money spent) and the rest I put in the fridge to save for later.
It's really really soothing for me, at least right now, to have that premade green smoothie, ice cold, waiting in the fridge when I first feel the twinges of nausea coming back. As soon as I drink about 25oz or so of that, the world turns right side up and I have about an hour or so of almost feeling completely normal to do what I need to do. Right now I need to get the kids ready for school & make their lunches so I better scoot.....I'll write more later. I also have some pictures I wanted to put up, and then write about my weight adventures since Jack was born. I love having a previous raw pregnancy to compare to!
Okay, back again! LOL I have this four year old little girl who LOVES her Mommy. She's always giving me kisses and says "I love you, Mom!" about 30 times per day, randomly, and then waits with anticipation for me to respond with an "I love you too, Grace!" She's also always chattering away about this or that, usually when I'm trying to concentrate on one thing or another (book, movie, computer) like right now when I'm trying to put my thoughts down on paper. So anyway, if this post appears to be a bit scattered, that's why. =)
So I also wanted to write that this time I am definitely not going to stress so much about losing the weight after the baby. It took a VERY long time to get down to where I wanted to be, 120lbs, and I was often so frustrated. This time I'm going to stop & take time to smell the roses and just do the best I can - but not worry about it. I obviously know how and can get down to the weight I want to, eventually, so it'll happen again.
But I do plan to watch my weight both during the pregnancy and afterwards. Some of you might think I'm like this disciplined person.......yeah, you should've seen me the past 3 weeks before I found out I was pregnant, lol! It was like brownies were my staple food or something. LOL!
Jack was 9 months old when I quit nursing - a record for me. But the funny thing is, as soon as I put him exclusively on formula, he got quite chunky! Go figure. I still have bottles & bottles of fenugreek and a whole big bag full of mother's milk tea dried herbs...I wonder if it'll keep through next summer? I don't see why it wouldn't. As soon as I finished nursing, once he was fully weaned, I went on a 10 day master cleanse. It was really hard for me to do - for some reason, I barely made it through the 10th day and then had some potato chips that night. What in the world? I don't even LIKE potato chips, lol! I think it was too close to weaning, because I remember it happened to me before, right after I weaned my 2 year old - I was really weak and it just felt "off" for some reason. Like my body still was in the nursing mode, ready to nurse again if my baby needed it - so was still needing those extra calories or something. Next time I need to remember to wait at least a month after I completely wean...it's hard to wait because it makes me release the extra weight so easily, but anyway. We'll see.
So on this first master cleanse after the baby was born, 9 months post partum, I lost about 7lbs. I held pretty steadily at 126-127 then, for 2 whole months after that, until October. I ate mostly raw and even did a couple of challenges with some friends....but after that it was hard for me to eat 100% raw - there was always one bite or one meal of this or that SAD food I couldn't resists, even junk food. So that was frustrating, and I decided that since it was getting close to the time when I usually get pregnant again, I would do another master cleanse in October. So I started on October 2nd, 2 months after my last master cleanse (which is about the minimum you're supposed to wait between them).
This time it was pure heaven! THIS is how I remembered it, I thought. I loved it!! My goal was 120lbs, and I decided to do it for 30 days. I went & bought $100 worth of maple syrup (DUMB IDEA), enough to last me the 30 days. I say dumb idea because duh, if I was so close to my goal then didn't it occur to me that 30 days might result in too much weight loss? Um...evidently not, lol.
So on the 9th day I weighed in at 120lbs. I was so excited! I hadn't weighed that since before I was married, and I could totally fit into my wedding dress except my waist was a tiny bit snug and my boobs....well, they are quite a bit smaller now. Lots of shrinkage happening because of my babies, lol=) Goes to show your body really does shift & change in shape once you have little ones!
So I knew that usually when you go back to eating raw food after a cleanse, you gain about 2-3lbs. So my goal then was to get to 117lbs and then I would go off of it, even if I didn't use up my syrup. But then I was like gosh, I spent so much on that syrup! I still had about $30 of it left. And I felt SO good - I had tons of energy and was rarely in a bad mood. I slept good, and my only problem at that point was no clothes! I fit into a size 0 or 2, depending on what brand. My stomach was pretty much flat - when I looked in the mirror, there was no bump whatsoever, just a straight flat line all the way down. Then, a tiny blip of fat left over from having babies right below my belly button. When I sucked in my stomach, I almost looked too skinny.
Then we had a family emergency, and I went to stay with my mom for 4 nights w/the kiddos. I was thankful I was on the cleanse because it made my food situation really easy, I just made up the lemonades at night and was good to go for the rest of the day. I had lots of energy to do what I needed to do, but there was no scale in the bathroom I used so...I didn't pay attention.
On the night of the 13th day, my Dad came and talked to me. He said one thing he really missed about his parents being gone (they both died within a month of each other this summer, one very unexpectedly) was that when they saw something that seemed out of place, they came to him and talked to him about it. Not in a prying/bossy sort of way, but out of love and genuine concern and wanting things to go well with him. They were precious and we miss them so much.
He said I am like my mom - I get fixated on things and go all out, and sometimes even overboard on things that interest me. He said I've been looking really good in the past couple of months, but right now (day 13 of the cleanse) I looked like I was on meth (drugs) or something. My face was too gaunt, you could see my cheekbones, and my bones were becoming prominent. Now to me, my face looked fine, but I could tell in my pants, that my butt was getting quite lost, lol, and my shape was starting to go away. As in, shapely woman looking shape. When you get to a size 0 it's like all there is left are little girls sizes and well....I definitely don't want to have a little girl's body! Also, my sister in law who hadn't seen me in a couple of months, went home after spending some time with me & called my mom. She wanted to know what was going on with me - was I on drugs? What was wrong? I looked awful, she said.
I didn't feel like I was out of control at all, and actually I still don't - but I think the fact that I'd been really busy with the family emergency & also without a scale....sort of made me lose track. I stepped on the scale that day when I got home, fully clothed, and I was at 111! That was weird. I sort of had this moment where I kind of panicked - I didn't mean to get that low AT ALL but it did look like it, looking in the mirror.
So I was really open to what he told me, and decided that next night would be my last day. So on the 15th day I started with OJ and gradually eased into eating normal food again. I was back up to 118 within a day or two, and stayed at about 120-122 for a while. Then I talked myself into eating junk food cuz I told myself I could afford to gain a little - and went on a 3-week free for all. I didn't know at the time that I was pregnant during this lovely eating spree....mostly I just ate alot of sugar and junk food - no meat for the most part.
I decided that my ideal weight is 125 - I look the best at that weight. I also haven't worked out or gone running in over a month, so obviously if I were to lift weights and gain muscle, that number might even be a little bit higher. It feels really weird to have actually attained my goal, though - to reached what I've been striving for, for over 2 years. I'm really happy to have been too skinny and realized it, instead of always thinking I need to keep losing, losing, losing even when I'm like 105 pounds and such. That to me proves that this is not something I'm "addicted" to or whatever - I love being thin, but normal thin. I am always amazed at how much energy I have even when I haven't been working out. I feel rather bouncy sometimes, like I can just bounce/jump/run instead of normally walking to my next destination.
So I started out this pregnancy at 127lbs, which is 7lbs less than my previous pregnancy. I still plan to track my pregnancy weight because it's fascinating to me to watch the scale move so slowly over the course of the months. But also it's a good check for me, because as you can see by the 3 week binge, I can definitely get out of control if I don't watch it. Obviously I would love to have a 25lb weight gain again with this pregnancy, so we'll see.
I guess that sums it up for now - I'm going to work on some pictures of Jack and a few showing me at my skinniest (but not the very skinny master cleanse - I don't have any pictures of that). Until next time.......!
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